Dear Dairy #9 - Him or Her!

I've witnessed and experienced                                                    

So many empty souls
My entire life
Even when I was younger
I could feel when something wasn't right
My spirit naturally equipped
Ready to redirect anything negative
Bullshit was never a tolerance
However
Cows produce milk
It makes sense
I'm lactose intolerant
The fake ass beef
Is a true allergy

Analytical Muse #10 FINALE - Boundaries

1. Boundaries                                                                                                                        

2. Mind your business
3. Therapy
4. Self Love, Respect, and Awareness
5. Mental & General Health
6. Prayer, Discernment, Faith & Manipulation
7. Positivity
8. Forgiveness
9. Love
10. Loyalty

Setting boundaries is a skill
Once implemented shit gets real
Some can understand your growth
Others will remind you of your past episodes
Let's be clear people's opinions of you hold no weight
Keep minding your business and become beyond great
Everyone needs therapy its back dated to slavery

Analytical Muse #9 - Pretty

Pretty is not always Pretty                                     

She as a youngster never like pretty

It was associated with to much girly shit

She wanted to do what the boys did

Be in nature if you will

Play with sticks, rocks and mud pies

Jump fences and played ni$$a knock

Ran fast as hell 

When the ni$$a came outside

Happy as Fuck it was a baseball bat

Not a knife or gun

They actually knew they were kids

Just trying to have fun

Analytical Muse #8 - DOG

I received my first haters at conception                                                
Perhaps a miscarriage would've been better per the deception
Decades of trauma, abuse and dysfunction
Perhaps if I gave in
I would be considered normal
The infamous bitch
Got me thinking the breast milk
Was mixed with dog shit
Forced to sniff gun powder
Mean like a thick bitch
Scraps rewarded when being a misfit
Walking on four legs
So two legs can have a friendship

Analytical Muse #7 - Rock Bottom

You'll never see it coming                                         

It's like a flash before your eyes

It's like staying awake to see the sunrise

It's like a sneak punch from the back

It's like finding out your mother smokes crack

It's like opening the fridge and nothing is there

It's like having hundreds of friends

Now no one is there

It's like wishing for another life

Fuck the positive shit

You're ready to fight

It's like the bills past due

Due to Covid-19

Analytical Muse #6 - Falling Again

I feel like falling in love again           

This time it will be different

I can actually see the vision

I've experienced the deep rooted healing

I've surrendered all the displeasing feelings

What it's like not to be loved by family

What it's like not to be loved by Ex's

What it's like not to be loved by myself

Analytical Muse #5 - New Worth

It’s a new day                                                                  

I’m on a new wave

I got a new dude

He got a new fade

I got some new rules

No time for fools play

If you come with the bull

I’ll show you my new ways

Analytical Muse #4 - GDT

It’s beautiful when a Man   

Knows how to provide

He takes charge
But let you live
Your life
He knows when to step in
Also
When to remain to the side
He knows how to build rapport
Therefore communication is never poor

Analytical Muse #3 -Therapy Cry

All these feelings and emotions                                     

Are like bombs exploding inside
It's crazy how therapy
Can make you cry sometimes
Each bomb location has a trigger
Depending on the figure
Scrambling trying to figure out
Who's Behind
The handling and shipping
Who sent the package
Who has a message
For me to receive

Analytical l Muse #2 - Hello Gorgeous

His “Hello Gorgeous                                    

Covered with lies
His deceit was so deep
I got butterflies
Undercover thoughts
He utilized
Suffer from depression
You can see the beast
In his eyes
He was hungry
Ready to eat
Bowlegs keep him
In his seat

Analytical Muse #1 - Dimed Lights

Close the doors                                   

          

Turn off the lights
Close the blinds
Only candle light
Remove the batteries
From the remote
No need for TV
It’s a freaking joke
Listen to a couple podcast
While I write
Put
Picture to sight
That’s what I like
It’s a mystery
When it comes to me