Analytical Muse #9 - Pretty

Pretty is not always Pretty                                     

She as a youngster never like pretty

It was associated with to much girly shit

She wanted to do what the boys did

Be in nature if you will

Play with sticks, rocks and mud pies

Jump fences and played ni$$a knock

Ran fast as hell 

When the ni$$a came outside

Happy as Fuck it was a baseball bat

Not a knife or gun

They actually knew they were kids

Just trying to have fun

Analytical Muse #8 - DOG

I received my first haters at conception                                                
Perhaps a miscarriage would've been better per the deception
Decades of trauma, abuse and dysfunction
Perhaps if I gave in
I would be considered normal
The infamous bitch
Got me thinking the breast milk
Was mixed with dog shit
Forced to sniff gun powder
Mean like a thick bitch
Scraps rewarded when being a misfit
Walking on four legs
So two legs can have a friendship

Analytical Muse #7 - Rock Bottom

You'll never see it coming                                         

It's like a flash before your eyes

It's like staying awake to see the sunrise

It's like a sneak punch from the back

It's like finding out your mother smokes crack

It's like opening the fridge and nothing is there

It's like having hundreds of friends

Now no one is there

It's like wishing for another life

Fuck the positive shit

You're ready to fight

It's like the bills past due

Due to Covid-19

Analytical Muse #6 - Falling Again

I feel like falling in love again           

This time it will be different

I can actually see the vision

I've experienced the deep rooted healing

I've surrendered all the displeasing feelings

What it's like not to be loved by family

What it's like not to be loved by Ex's

What it's like not to be loved by myself

Analytical Muse #5 - New Worth

It’s a new day                                                                  

I’m on a new wave

I got a new dude

He got a new fade

I got some new rules

No time for fools play

If you come with the bull

I’ll show you my new ways